thoughts

Juz watched grey's anatomy season 6 epi 6. Its a really good episode..thats how i feel. It tells a lot about the things happening around in our lives. Mistakes that can cause irreversible consequences, in these sense, death of a patient. Everyone is simply so caught up in their own chase of ensuring their future in the hospital and they fail to realise what their purpose of their job is. The purpose is a simple yet difficult to achieve. Responsibilities are shirked when it comes to finding out the truth and the blame game starts. Issit that difficult to take ownership of the things one has done and realise that they are all at fault? Guess things aren't as simple as it seems.

On the other hand, I felt that the small little things that doctors do make a great impact on the patient's life. Sweet words and small talk goes a long way...helping the patient through difficult times and getting pass the pain phase. May seem weird for a doc to do that but i guess helping the patient isn't really all about treating the patient with medications and stuff. Its everything about the patient..even if it means stepping out of comfort zone, juz like how little grey had to control her emotions within her.

All doctors have a common goal, a simple yet difficult one to practice, so i shall end off with something i really like that han said at the end "that's our job. didn't you make any mistakes? weren't you distracted? we are lucky our patients didn't die and so we didn't get caught."

a little more

Done with human dev mid sem. Went alright..juz one qn which i'm not really sure of the ans but it went well overall. Still got my med chem mid sem which is next mon as well as human dev presentation on wed! Would have a slight breather after that before i start on my article and lab reports again.

Oh dear...need to start on MCAT soon too! Shall start this weekend. I must!!!

muddle head

Biggest blunder i made in a looooong time. Walked into the lecture theatre this morning and all ready for my med chem mid sem. Sat down and waited for a while cuz i was early. When the clock slowly approached 10, I was starting to wonder why there weren't anyone here yet. Things din't seem right and i went out to take a look. Met one of my friend who is also doing med chem and asked her is there the mid sem today?

BEST. the exam is next mon not this! Realised i'm such a blur queen. How can i ever mixed my exam up and this wasted my whole week end away studying for something that wasn't gonna to happen. Could have spent time doing my presentation this wed and studying for my human development mid sem. Carn't believe myself.

I know whose fault it is!!!! Its all HIS fault!!! Bad bad influence from him :( think i spend too much time with him already and need some other kind of good influence :P ahahhahah.

Last week had been a rather eventful week and i got to catch up a lot with my parents and the rest of the family. I miss them so badly!!!! Rae is becoming so much cuter and its like 6 weeks since i haven't seen her only?? She has grown tonnes and become so much cuter. Daddy is still forever so funky and funny! Loves to make funny jokes and i love talking to him. But the careless him slipped and fell into the pool while holding rate and playing with her. Injured his back and i really hope he will get better soon. Jie and mum are doing good. One is busy trying to get goods to sell while the other is busy catching up on shows :D My mum's fav..haha i think its cuz of the influence from me :P Carn't wait to be back home on the 17th dec! LOOOOOKING FORWARD ALREADY (:

Last night was also an enjoyable and interesting night! I love having these kind of talking sessions cuz its with you...learning more about you everyday (: i wanna go back homeeeeeee now!!!!!

counting my blessings

Phew...i'm really thankful for what i got and it was the best outcome that i totally didn't expect. God really does wonders in my life and i'm so grateful for everything (:

Happy happy gal at the moment (:(:(: and one who is also being dearly loved <3<3<3

- One more week and busy week would more or less be over temporarily -

busier than ever

These two weeks are gonna be the real killer for me. 2 lab reports, 2 mid terms, quiz tomorrow, 1 presentation and not forgetting ANATOMY! Anatomy has been a real killer esp the skull. Simply too many holes, grooves, names of minute places that you will never expect to remember. Its killing! Had our formative spotter anat exam last fri and i can say its a total disaster. Too little time and too many stuff. Kinda of a wake up call on how much i muz mug for this subject :(

Been missing out on so much stuff. I wanna go to max brenner's with caroline and the rest, go to robina to get stuff, overdue emails to enghui, lian, pee and tonnes more. I also wanna talk to pee on the phone too!!!!! Haven't got the time. Hopefully things can ease out soon and i have more time for myself.

Tough sem ahead. I miss everyone one back home...family, the gals, enghui, smu bunch and everyone there!! All i want for christmas is you guys!

P.S thanks everyone for your concern (: i'm fine already!

trying and trying

Been having insomnia the past few nights and i dunno why. I dont have naps in the afternoon yet i juz carnt seem to fall asleep no matter what. Spend two hours trying to so hard to fall asleep but to i keep on turning and turning on each side to find myself still wide awake. Thoughts juz keep flooding my mind and i carnt keep them off my head...i get floods of emotions when i think about it. Juz carnt help it. I really wish i could control my mind to stop it from thinking..but i juz cannot do it. I dunno what to do but im really trying..trying so hard to get it off my mind and be myself again. I would get there soon. Give me some time...

d.r.o.w.n.i.n.g.

The amount of workload and memorisation is killing me totally. ENDLESS.

I juz have to get over this sem and i know i can.

yourpresencebesidemeispriceless

itshardnottofeelthatwayespeciallyaftersomanythingsthathashappenjuzneedalittlemoreunderstandingfromyou

keep fit

Tennis was awesome yesterday (: incorporated games with playing tennis and it definitely made it much more interesting and challenging at the same time. Thoroughly enjoyed my so called workout for the day :P Had to run around the court for like 5 mins non-stop and try to achieve the max no of rounds. Ha..lucky for me..i didn't do worse than the last time i did it. Shows that my fitness dint deprove..oki..at least remain the same. Muz workout more to keep fit!!! That's why caroline and me going running tomorrow morning before brunch. Hopefully can wake up..thats what im more worried about :D

Anat prac was good today. Finished the whole thing in like half an hour when it was supposed to be one and a half hours long. Achievement and our grp was the first to walk out of the lab. Oops...but we were really done with it (: Everyone is like trying to get my atlas book too! All thanks to miss ong who helped me get it (: Its really really good and i think its the most useful thing for anat this sem and im sure for the next sem too since im doing anat 2. I dont even bother reading the lect notes cuz the pics are sooooo small and the diagram is real bad. Thank goodness for the atlas or else i might juz fail anat. Anat formative spotter test is next week and its getting me slightly worried. That means i gotta start revising for everything since week1 now cuz this coming week i will be too busy with projects and assignments :( busy busy week for me while those back in sg are having their one week break!

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